Goals

My boss called me into his office yesterday to ask me what my goals are for next year. I told him I want to los 10 pounds. I don't think that's exactly what he meant to get out of the conversation, but hopefully a little humor always helps at yearly review time.

I thought this would be a good time to spill my personal goals for the following year.

Goal 1: I really would like to get back to the Thrive Weightloss way of eating. It's amazing how well it works. If only I had followed the maintenance plan to keep it off. I write this while I'm eating trail mix made from dried fruit, mixed nuts and tons of chocolate and peanut butter chips.

Goal 2: Quit sabotaging myself once I reach a goal. I really prefer to blame my husband for the sabotage, although that's not completely fair. He's not forcing beer and hot wings down my throat, but he keeps bringing them home, so he definitely contributes. Why'd I marry a man from a naturally skinny family?

Goal 3: Go through the complete 3 month (I think it's 3 months) Turbo Fire exercise program.

Goal 4: Get that darn MCTS certification.

Goal 5: Get through a year without smoking a cigerette. I'm on day 6!

Welpex

I know, I haven't posted in a while, even though I said I would. I have my excuses and for the most part they're not going to be named.

I have been forced to quit smoking. I knew it would happen someday, but I didn't expect it so quickly. My health insurance is going to go up a small fortune if I don't quit, so I have been trying several methods. Keep in mind that I've been smoking for 30 years, so it's like killing my best friend (I know, so dramatic). I have to briefly mention that it completely pisses me off that the insurance companies aren't going after type 2 diabetics, a huge epidemic in this country. It's not politically correct to pick on fat people like it is smokers. I get it. I have perfect pulmonary function, perfect heart rate, better than perfect cholesterol but they're going to charge me $100.00 more a month for insurance than someone who has to inject insulin in their gut every day simply because they can't stay away from processed foods and sweets and can't take time to exercise. Grrrrrrrrr.

I tried cold turkey. I feel sorry for anyone who was around me those 3 days. I was a royal bitch! And I couldn't sleep. My muscles and nerves were so on edge it was making me and everyone around me miserable. this is not a good method to try when your job is primarily customer service based.

I tried nicotine patch. That is just slow torture. All it does is prolong the agony.

I tried cutting back. I can come up with more excuses than you can imagine for a smoke. Needless to say, it didn't work.

So I tried the Welpex shots. I researched it and that made me soooooo nervous. Mostly because I couldn't find any information that wasn't put out by the people selling the stuff. You can tell because page after page was the excact same drivel. I know the medicines in the shots was FDA approved but not FDA approved for that use. I got so tired of reading the exact same information webpage after webpage. It was obvious the clinics that administer this method were the ones putting all the data out there. I did read see one Youtube video about the dangers of it. How the doctor that 'discovered' it had his license revoked due to fraud and that one of the medicines is a poison. I really didn't give that much thought. I probably would have if I had seen articles or forums where people discussed the problems they'd had. Besides, if you're willing to put all those toxins found in cigerettes into your body, what's a little poison?

So what's it like? After the shots I was sleepy and my throat was dry. I slept most of the way home, most of the evening and woke up pretty refreshed the next morning. Now I'm taking 2 prescriptions that keep a very low dose of the medicine in my system for 2 weeks, to get me through the withdrawal. They have slight side affects, but in my mind pleasant ones. If you ever got stoned 30 years ago when pot was really pot and not the chemical crap it is now, it is like that. At least I think it is. It's been so many years since I got high I'm not positive, but that's what it reminds me of.

It's not a miracle cure. I do want a smoke. I want to celebrate the fall weather with a glass of wine and cigerette while sitting on my back porch. I want to wake up to a hot cup of coffee and cigerette. But I know these are my emotional habits talking. My evil little friend. Not the withdrawal symptoms.

So yes it does work. I am not having the harsh withdrawal symptoms that I was having. But the emotional symptoms are still there and still strong. I have to keep reminding myself $150.00 a month for shopping. . . . $150.00 a month for shopping.

Surely that will motivate me to stay away from smoking again. Money talks!

Turbo Fire and Thrive Weightloss

This week I'm back on track with Turbo Fire, and I've decided to just start from the beginning. It's making my back hurt a little from arthritis. Those side to side movements from the waist do wreak havoc on my joints.

The diet plan is going okay too. I stocked up on clean food for the week. At the end of the week I'm going to see how much difference it makes to put the 2 together. I have to admit though, after eating whatever I want for the last few months (and gaining weight, ouch), I'm hungry being back on track, but I know that will just last a couple days. Also, I'm having a hard time finding food for breakfast. I'm not a big egg eater, can't stand the taste of any protein powders (and yes if you suggest it, I've tried it, not wasting any more money on it) and I'm limited as far as finding protein that I can stand to eat that early.

Life

I confess, I've been such a slug lately. I haven't been working out and I've been eating so much junk. So next week while the husband is out of town, I'll be revisting the Thrive Weight Loss Plan and definitely getting back to doing Turbo Fire.

Sometimes life and lack thereof get in the way of your plans to succeed. Sometimes it's just that little demon on the right shoulder. It's time for me to get back to a serious schedule, because not having one makes me lazy. Trying to fit in work, studying for a certification, and a slight social life all sidetracked me, but not for long.

I have been letting the husband do all the grocery shopping and 99% of the cooking. And along with drinking beer, it's really packed on the pounds. I am hoping I can knock off a good chunk of the weight I need to get off (or at least get a good start on it) next week while the husband is away. Till then, I'll probably be incognito.

Talk to you soon.

Turbo Fire

I haven't been posting the last few days because, uggghhhh, I haven't been working out. I have a legitimate excuse every time I skip a workout (don't we all?).

I'm trying to give up smoking because my health insurance is going to go up $120.00 a month if I don't quit. I can pour as much sugar and saturated fat into my body as my heart desires, but one puff of a cigerette and I'll be broke starting January 1.

I've been using the nicotine patches, which don't help much. I still want to smoke and have a few every day. But the downside is that they keep me awake all night. Even if I take the patch off a few hours before bedtime, I end up staring at the ceiling all night. So I'm exhausted and irritable. I'll be trying the stop smoking injection next month if I get the okay from my doctor. I have to make sure it doesn't interact with a medication I take first. Nothing like the thought of injecting poison into your body to quit a bad habit. But it seems to help some, so I'm willing to try it.

Anyway, I digress. I've been extremely tired and irritable, which is a polite way of saying I've been a royal bit#@ lately. Last night I was so tired I don't think anything could have kept me awake and I slept great. I fully expect to tonight also, so hopefully by tomorrow I'll be back on track. There are still so many of the workouts I haven't tried and I'm looking forward to it.